hangover....

i got a huge pain on my stomach and a huge stone sitting on my chest. i can't breathe. too much smoking last night. all the joint in my body seems like binded with rubber. so stiff.

i went clubbing last night.... after so long now i can feel the feeling going clubbing again. the feeling was amazing! for a minute you can feel free. jump around here and there, drink!

I think i had enough of this night life. my body feels like too fragile to dance the whole night like last night. feel so tired now. it is not what i felt two and a half years ago when i went clubbing but then i can still did my presentation in front of the class.

but i realise. it wasn't wrong to went out last night. i really need something that makes me forget abt what is happening to me in the real life. i can't stand it anymore when my mom called me asking abt full time job which i never get since i graduated. i wrote to an agent to find me a full time job. when i was typing, i was totally confuse. i didn't know what job should i find and dunno how much my expected salary.

I think life is really hard. and people who is harder than life can go on. those who are weaker than life itself will end up commit suicide or crazy. and i still dunno which one i could be.