Sunday, February 24, 2013

Lord

The Lord is my Father. The Father that I can rely on. I can depend on. He allows things to cross my path to satisfy His plan for me. I am mortal. I am worthless. I am nothing. But because He sacrificed Jesus for me on the cross, I am righteous. I am worthy in His eyes and I become the only one He loves.

Father, I thank you and I can't thank you enough for everything that you have given me. Help me to open up my heart even broader to your blessings. Help me see everything through Your spirit and flow in your blessings. In Jesus name. Amen.

Thursday, November 08, 2012

Your Father

My child....
You may not know me, but i know everything about you(Psalm 139:1). I know when you ait down and when you rise up (Psalm 139:2). I am familiar with all your ways (Psalm 139:3). Even the very hairs on your head are numbered (Mat 10:29-31). For you were made in My image (Gen 1:27). In Me you live and move and have your being (Acts 17:28). For you are My offspring (Acts 17:28). I knew you even before you were conceived (Jeremiah 1:4-5). I chose you when I planned creation (Eph 1:11-12). You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in My book (Psalm 139:15-16). I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live (Acts 17:26). You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). I knit you together in your mother's womb (Psalm 139:13). And brought you forth on the day you were born (Psalm 71:6). I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me (John 8:41-44). I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love (1 John 4:16). And it is My desire to labish My love on you (1 John 3:1). Simply because you are my child and I am your Father (1 John 3:1). I offer you more than your earthly father ever could (Mat 7:11). For I am the perfect Father (Mat 5:48). Every good gift that you receive comes from My hand (James 1:37). For I am your provider and I meet all your needs (Mat 6:31-33). My plan for your future has always been filled with hope (Jeremiah 29:11). Because I love you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore (Psalm 139:17-18). And I rejoice over you with singing (Zephaniah 3:37). I will never stop doing good to you (Jeremiah 32:40). For you are my tresured possesion (Exodus 19:5). I desire to establish you with all My heart and all My soul (Jeremiah 32:41). And I want to show you great and marvelous things (Jeremiah 33:3). If you seek me with all your heart, you will find Me (Deuteronomy 4:29). Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm17:4). For it is I who gave you those desires (Philippians 2:13). I am able to do more for you than you could possible imagine (Ephesians 3:20). For I am your greatest encourager (2Thessalonians 2:16-17). I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles (2Corinthians 1:3-4). When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you (Psalm 34:18). As a sheperd carties a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart (Isaiah 40:11). One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes (Revelation 21:3-4). And I'll take all the pain you have suffered on this earth (Revelation 21:3-4). I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. (John 17:23). For in Jesus, My love for you is revealed (John 17:26). He is the exact representation of My being (Hebrew 1:3). He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not againts you (Romans 8:31). And to tell you that I am not counting your sins (2 Corinthians 5:18-19). Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled (2 Corinthians 5:18-19). His death was the ultimate expression of My love for you (1 John 4:10). I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love (Romans 8:31-32). If you receive the gift of My son, Jesus, you receive Me (1 John 2:23). And nothing will ever separate you from My love again (Romans 8:38-39). Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen (Luke 15:7). I have always been Father and will always be Father (Ephesians 3:14-15). My question is... will you be My child? (John 1:12-13). I am waiting for you (Luke 15:11-32).

Love Your Dad
Almighty God

Friday, November 02, 2012

Your Love

Here I am, Lord
Sitting at your feet
Casting all my cares
Into your mighty hand.

Here i am, Lord
Lifting my hands
And Offering my heart
To worship you only.

Your word broke through the darkness
Your grace cast out all my fears
You love is the air that I breathe
Your gaze is like a living water

Oh Lord, you make me look into your eyes
You secure me with your blood
You strengthen me with your unending love
Who am i to be your most important?

Monday, June 28, 2010

Bad Marriages

I grew up witnessing bad marriage. Husband beats wife, husband with second wife, husband marrying their maid, husband not being intimate with the wife and the last one is a bit different. Wife's not being intimate with her husband.

The last one i just heard about it several days ago. I know they guy. He used to be someone very close to me. He married the girl just after about 1 year they got together. When I got the invitation i was quite skeptical about it. I knew him and it's not his style of relationship. I was right. Now they're going separate way until they can sell their flat which could only be sold next year.

I feel sad for him. He claimed that they have a very different character. They just could not find an agreement in anything. I mean, look at this way, when you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, automatically you'll try to find out their true character and whether you can keep up with their imperfections and whether you guys can get the agreement on their difference.

Now I'm asking myself. Why does marriage seems to be so bad? Do I want to get married after witnessing all the bad ones? Of course I have witness the good ones. But being human, bad ones gives more impression than a good ones.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Gambling = Bad?

Been addicted to gambling these days. I think it's already about a year now.

It all started from going to Genting. I believe those who stays in South East Asia know where it is. For those who are not familiar with it, it is located 45 mins driving off Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia. It is located on top of a mountain so the whether is just fantastic (for me).

Back to gambling, I didn't believe at first that gambling is interesting at all. every dollar that is lost was like a pinch for me. The game goes on and as I won several games, I found myself getting attached to the game. Casino became my favorite place whenever I go for holiday.

It is all about self-control. Come on... Everybody has a problem with it. Don't blame gambling for making people stuck deeper and deeper in their debt or ruining their family. Blame it on them for not being able to control them.

Now I am in front of my TV watching the world's famous World Cup with its most famous game Portugal-Brasil. Beside me is the betting tickets. Yes, ticketS! For me, It's about entertainment! It's about adrenaline! It's about making myself forget about things for a while. It's saver than drugs, saver than drinking.

Alright... the football is getting more interesting than writing this blog. Ciao!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

to get married or not to get married. That is the question.

You're 28. Not married. Staying in Asia. You're a problem.

Yup, that's what they think. At least I thought what they think of me and my kind. It's like a pain in the ass for Asian culture to find a girl that is not married in their late 20s. It's like a big sin that you're committing.
It's been about 2 years that I have been haunted by questions and statements like "why aren't you married yet?", "When are you getting married?", "Get married soon! and have lots of children!". Well, I do admit that getting married and having kids is one of human's responsibility in this world. But that is not the only purpose that we are created for.

I find it amusing that people force other people to get married at -they think- the right time. Before 30. I look at marriage as a beginning of all the problem that human need to face. Let's see it this way, if you're not ready to add more problem in your life, why must you?

Alright, I have a friend. Call her Jess. She's in her early 30s. Single. Attractive. Cheerful. 2 years ago she almost marry her ex boyfriend. To cut the story short, she broke up with him. Returned all the valuables that he had bought for her. But the most important thing, she is happier without him that she could ever be. She found out that she just can't marry him.

Jess has a younger brother. Just one year older than me. He has a girlfriend. They had been together for a year and they're getting married early next year.
I asked Jess "Why so fast? Together for a year and that's it? Wow.. they must be madly in love.." She said,"His girlfriend told him that if he doesn't marry her soon, she'll break off with him". "Why?" I asked. "I don't know. I don't think he is ready to get married. Financially. But he's marrying her anyway."
Short and shocking conversation. I mean, what are you chasing for?

My side of the story always comes from my parents. Right now they are worried that my fiance wont marry me when it is damn obvious to them that it is impossible that one of us could live without each other. Eventually, they atopped pushing me about getting married after I told them that I wont get married as long as they are still pushing for that.

Many other stories about marriage i heard from my friends. It is just irritating to have the same questions asked over and over again.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Pain

I know you're hurt. It hurts me to see you hurt. You told me you don't want to hurt me ever. Prove it!
I care for you. Trust me. I would do anything to make you happy. I know you love me and I love you too. All the feelings that I have for you was true and believe me, you will always be in my heart. Please forgive me for the pain that you have now. I felt that the guilt is haunting me now and it breaks my heart apart.
Please don't break us cos this is the only thing that we have now and I can't afford to lose you.