Wednesday, July 23, 2008

WTF

Oh.... And now everything is my fault.

My fault for being too ignorance about relationship etiquette. Guide me! I know nuts about anything! You are my parents... you supposed to educate me!

It's just like, i wake up from my sleep and found so many fingers pointing at me for creating a stupid situation.

I repeat to you again... I DON'T KNOW ANY FUCKING THING!

Just SPEAK to me like you supposed to. If you don't wanna feel worry, ASK me question. If you want me to know things, TELL me straight to my damn face!

TALK TO ME!!!
why is it so hard to just talk to me?
Don't expect me not to bang anything while I'm searching in the dark. Who asked you to leave me alone in the dark to find my way. Give my some light! A little light will do and I'm not asking you to take the whole sun to light me.

I'm tired of feeling guilty. I never asked to become an apple of your heart. This makes me go crazy. Please.... If anything happens to you, I don't want to be the one who's responsible for this. I didn't have a chance to choose my own way.
Just stop putting more and more responsibility on my shoulder. It got no more space. It got no more strength to carry anything anymore.

All i wanna ask is just to let me go a little bit. Please give me some air to breathe!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Is it true?

i'm wondering... what on earth human are created for? what on earth all the plant and all the animal are created for?
they live and they die... just to destroy the earth?

Human make a living in the earth. sometimes they can be honest to make money, they can cheat each other even kill each other.. but for what purpose?

Is it true when we do kindness we all will go to heaven?
What is heaven? what is hell?

What is good and what is bad?

What is religion? I thought religion is created by human. So those cave man who are cannibal by culture.... can they be called sinners? i don't think they know what is the meaning of sin. will they go to hell?

All these question popped up in my head. just suddenly. And i have the urge to spit it out.