I know you're hurt. It hurts me to see you hurt. You told me you don't want to hurt me ever. Prove it!
I care for you. Trust me. I would do anything to make you happy. I know you love me and I love you too. All the feelings that I have for you was true and believe me, you will always be in my heart. Please forgive me for the pain that you have now. I felt that the guilt is haunting me now and it breaks my heart apart.
Please don't break us cos this is the only thing that we have now and I can't afford to lose you.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
VOTE FOR ME!
VOTE FOR ME FOR TOP 10 FHM GND!!
My GND number is GND47!
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FHM4GND47[Your Name][Your Nric][Your Email]
I NEED YOUR SUPPORT!!!!!
If you would like to see more of my pictures, FIND me on Facebook. Just type my name:"Nina Mareta Kosasih". I know it's a bit long but it worth the type. hahaha....
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
FHM top 100 GND
And... Here it is ....... and suddenlyy....
Ok Let me start from the beginning.
I was in desperate mode to get more cash in my hand cos of some things happened to me. I've been modeling for about 6 months now. And I came across this opening. It's an opening for FHM Girls Next Door 2009. Desperate to get fame in order to roll in the cash as well, i sent a few of my pics afterward i felt ashamed to myself. As though there are 2 voices shouting at each other. "how can you send your own picture there? You think you are f***ing pretty? you think you are damn hot???" the other voice said "it's alright. it's just for fun. No harm done anyway. just forget about this."
So.... I followed my second voice. I started to forget that even though my other voice kept on screaming and i ignored it.
About a month and a half, FHM contacted my through email. It gave me a sudden blood rush to my brain and leashed out my sweat. ir stated that i was pre-selected for FHM top 100 GND. I asked around what it meant by pre-selected. Still need to go audition for top 100 or what??
Well... i needed to go to their studio for a photoshoot. it was about a week from the day i read the email.
I started my diet 3 days before the shoot. I had to. I have rather protruding stomach if i eat solid food.
The day of the photoshoot had arrived and i hadn't enough sleep the night before. I was excited, scared and restless. I scheduled my shoot at 4pm. I reached the studio 3.45pm to show that i treat this thing seriously.
When i was outside the studio, i saw one girl going off the studio. I guess she is a malay with a nice features and body. I was thrilled, devastated and my confidence start to drained out. I told myself, it's ok you're doing this just for fun. My confidence went back a bit.
I was told to fill in a form and read the statements behind the form. It stated there that i have already chosen as one of the top 100 GND. And i still couldn't believe it. It only made my whole body shook nervous and excited.
One of the guys asked me to get ready for my turn. I put on my make up byt i couldn't do it properly as my hands shook. I had to use 2 hands to apply mascara. one holding the mascara, one holding my other shaking hand putting my mascara. Now, make-up done and my bikini was done as well. Time to show my posing skill. hahaha...
So there i went in. It as less than 3 mins. It was like a .... blitz of a light and it was done!
So all the devastation and excitement were for that 3 minutes!
I went home and try to forget it.
I received an email yesterday night that my picture will be out on the 13th March 2009 for FHM top 100 GND. Thrilled and start to "book" my friend to vote me. So kiasu............. Haiz....
Ok Let me start from the beginning.
I was in desperate mode to get more cash in my hand cos of some things happened to me. I've been modeling for about 6 months now. And I came across this opening. It's an opening for FHM Girls Next Door 2009. Desperate to get fame in order to roll in the cash as well, i sent a few of my pics afterward i felt ashamed to myself. As though there are 2 voices shouting at each other. "how can you send your own picture there? You think you are f***ing pretty? you think you are damn hot???" the other voice said "it's alright. it's just for fun. No harm done anyway. just forget about this."
So.... I followed my second voice. I started to forget that even though my other voice kept on screaming and i ignored it.
About a month and a half, FHM contacted my through email. It gave me a sudden blood rush to my brain and leashed out my sweat. ir stated that i was pre-selected for FHM top 100 GND. I asked around what it meant by pre-selected. Still need to go audition for top 100 or what??
Well... i needed to go to their studio for a photoshoot. it was about a week from the day i read the email.
I started my diet 3 days before the shoot. I had to. I have rather protruding stomach if i eat solid food.
The day of the photoshoot had arrived and i hadn't enough sleep the night before. I was excited, scared and restless. I scheduled my shoot at 4pm. I reached the studio 3.45pm to show that i treat this thing seriously.
When i was outside the studio, i saw one girl going off the studio. I guess she is a malay with a nice features and body. I was thrilled, devastated and my confidence start to drained out. I told myself, it's ok you're doing this just for fun. My confidence went back a bit.
I was told to fill in a form and read the statements behind the form. It stated there that i have already chosen as one of the top 100 GND. And i still couldn't believe it. It only made my whole body shook nervous and excited.
One of the guys asked me to get ready for my turn. I put on my make up byt i couldn't do it properly as my hands shook. I had to use 2 hands to apply mascara. one holding the mascara, one holding my other shaking hand putting my mascara. Now, make-up done and my bikini was done as well. Time to show my posing skill. hahaha...
So there i went in. It as less than 3 mins. It was like a .... blitz of a light and it was done!
So all the devastation and excitement were for that 3 minutes!
I went home and try to forget it.
I received an email yesterday night that my picture will be out on the 13th March 2009 for FHM top 100 GND. Thrilled and start to "book" my friend to vote me. So kiasu............. Haiz....
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Just Some Crap
People said love sets you free.
And I thought we should listen and follow our screaming heart.
But why I found the love that I feel right now forbidden?
And why am i now forced to ignore my pure heart crying?
Am I not supposed to feel this love?
Or all that I feel now is not for eternity.
Who should judge?
And I thought we should listen and follow our screaming heart.
But why I found the love that I feel right now forbidden?
And why am i now forced to ignore my pure heart crying?
Am I not supposed to feel this love?
Or all that I feel now is not for eternity.
Who should judge?
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