I can't make you love me

"do you actually love him?" she asked
"yes eventually..." I sighed
"then?"
"then... i think i should lern how to let him go..."
"why?"
"why? because... i can't make him to love me" I cried
"have you ever really tried it before?"
"yes." I said while playing a song.........

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

I'll close my eyes and then I won't see
The love you do not feel, when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then, to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

I cried.............

And I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
And here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

Ain't no use in you trying
It's no good for me baby without love
All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in
Baby
Oh yeah
Someone's gonna love me

"do you love him that much?" she asked again
"eventually...." i said. Still crying
"and eventually you feel what love is"
"and eventually it's not really pleasant enough to feel."
"well..."
"well... i'm trying to let him go. cos i can't make him to love me."
I walked away from her with a broken heart and tears kept flowing on my cheek.
"and i hope someone else will love me. i really hope that he loves me....." I shouted.

Tattva - Kula Shaker

Tattva,
acintya bheda bheda tattva (4 times)
Like the flower and the scent of summer,
like the sun and the shine
Well the truth may come in strange disguises
Send the message to your mind

Tattva,

acintya bheda bheda tattva (4 times)
At the moment that you wake from sleeping

and you know its all a dream

Still at the office. I know i should go back home by this time but i just don't have the feeling of going back....

I like the song that i play on my comp now. Destress kind of feeling.....

hmmmm maybe i should buy books. yup! and i think i have to go now....

*sneeze*......... *cough*

*sneeze*
*sneeze*
Bleah.... nose blocked and my throat is damn painful now. hope nothing happened to me. if something happens........ what should i do? i'm a ghost these several days. i dun have enough sleep, become alcoholic, and now blur....

went for interview last night at a pub.*you guys must be thinking what i expect you guys will think of* for Promotor position *actually this name is only to make this job sounds not too bad* basically i need to talk to customer and ask them to open a bottle of spirit or whiskey and those kind of liquor. if they want me to drink with them, i need to drink with them. that's my job scope. *told you promotor sounds too good*

Relax guys! this job is only my part time job! i will start on thursday adn i can work everyday if i want. but i won't. i still love my kidney and heart and liver. i don't want to lose them now.

*cough*
*cough*
*hold neck*
bleah my lung feels very dry. and my eyes feel very heavy for me to keep them open. my face look very tired and i'm having coffee hoping that my eyes will be a little bit lighter. just my hope. whoah! i think i need to take a nap.